Yin & Yang ? Maybe not.

Does it have to be all black or white? I highly doubt it. There are so many grey areas to everyone and everything. I seldom encounter people who are all bad or all good. There's the good in the bad and the underlying bad in those who are good. And the same goes with feelings. At a given time and space, at least for me, I'm never completely feeling one particular thing. Or maybe it's just me - and those alike me, who have their sensitivities out on a leash. 

Mixed feelings are so very real. Almost an underrated zone of existence at all times for many people.

Hesitance that comes with hope. Love surrounded by fear of loss. Joy that camouflages the pain within. Excitement that rumarages the doors of nervousness. Basically, a little of both the drastic ends. 

Somewhere we always tread on the middle. And that's perfectly okay. Because wouldn't it be too boring to just feel one thing at a time? Also, how limited would it be to enclose yourself like that? Almost dictorian. 

For people like me, having homes in two cities makes it worse to harbour mixed feelings. They just come over your mood graph and pull you down or push you up to glee, depending on their own fancy. 

When you've left pieces of your heart at different places, you yearn and long to be here, there and elsewhere - all with equal gusto. And as far as feelings go, you're perpetually perplexed as to what to feel as opposed to what you are supposed to feel. 

But when you're facing such overwhelming times, do what Naina's character in Ye Jawani Hai Deewani quoted; " Bunny, jitna bhi try karlo, kuch na kuch toh chootega hi. Toh jaaha hai wahi ka mazza le lo."

Be triumphant in the grey areas. Life, people and feelings are not always black or white. And who says we can't colour them up ourselves? Your job is to dance while the world yins and yangs between colours.